A Friend In Need is A Friend Indeed ?

Do you remember the saying, " A Friend In Need is A Friend Indeed" ? Tell me, what does it actually mean to you? To me, it means everything! Everything I would do and devoted to when my friends are in trouble. Is that what we call best friends?

A few days ago, in order to protect my friends from criticizer, I stood in my face and against them. I knew I would be the one who will be hated by all those people but so what! I don't care! All I know is I have to protect the people I love and care for. Interestingly however, they let me down. They were the people who disappointed me the most and I felt like my heart has been crashed hardly. When those people against me back, do you have any idea what my friends did? They turned their back at me and said, "You are gonna be in trouble. I won't dare walking with you. We better separate". They acted innocent. I was almost in tears to hear that. Never in my life I expected to hear those words from them. No..

Another heart broken news came at night, when my dearest friend accused me of annoying her friend. I tried and I cared. Like they say, "Never get into other people's affair, It does you no good" because after all, you will be the one with all the blames in the end and that's me.

I learned a lot of lesson these days. People don't see me the way I see them and it doesn't mean that they will stand for me in time of troubles. They are still my friends of course, but the the way they rank in my heart will no longer stay. They will become just a normal friends to me. You know what I notice! when I get into problems, when I need somebody to be there for me, someone just to listen to me honestly, there's no one I could think of. No one.