These few years, I noticed an obvious change in me. I noticed that I started to lose interest in playing, hanging out, talking, listening, speaking, participating. . . I become gloomy and speechless. Even I went to the places I used to enjoy and love so much, I just sat there and look at others having fun. I tried to make myself fit into the environment and force myself to join, but I ended up feeling tired. I don’t understand why I am like this. I kept asking myself what is wrong with me. I just don’t feel happy at all, not at all. I cried a lot not knowing what for.
I am tired. I am really tired of everything in me. It’s been a thousand times I said I am tired. I don’t want to wake up from my sleep. I don’t want to think about anything, feel anything, or care about anything. Is it because I am growing up now? I am so confuse and I don’t know what’s inside my head. I just feel I can’t take it anymore. I just feel I don’t know what I want. I just feel people are leaving me behind. I just feel I am so lonely. I just feel I don’t know what to do. I just feel so hard and tired inside.
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